When I was diagnosed with severe depression twice, I almost lost everything. There is a thought inside me that tells me there is no God (now I know that it is a lie) but deep inside me is saying that there is a BIG GOD. That moment leads me to read the word of God in the Bible and seek God.
When I seek God, I do not just focus in one belief system. I look for other religion and seek the inner core of what they are believing. They are all fall into the same values, “LOVE”.
Actually, when I seek God, I attended a talk from a Buddhist author because I bought a book entitled, “Search Inside Yourself”. But then the author spoke to me or to us that when he seeks the highest form of love in the whole universe, he found “Agape” which can only be found in Christianity. That made me stay as a born-again Christian. I believe that God loves human imperfection that is why He sends Jesus on Earth to save the lost soul or the lost sheep.
I pray and go deeper reading the Bible every day, despite of the irrational fear that I am experiencing. During those times I murmur to God. But something happened very strange. The following Sunday, I attended church and the pastor preached not to murmur to God but to ask Him and pray whatever my desire is. See how God knows what is happening to me! God speaks through a preacher.
I would say that there is a real battle in mind. There is a chaos that makes me lost my peace and I would say my real worth and value as a child of the Highest God.
I just continue praying and reading the Bible. Little by little doubt and fear dissipates. Calmness on my soul takes place as I read Psalms and Proverbs and most of the books on the New Testament. But the most changing part is reading Psalms 23 and Psalms 91. Those are the remarkable Bible verses that calms my emotion and my mind. It makes me sleep well and peaceful.
With that experienced, I have shared it to my friend who gets troubled when sleeping was in suicidal mode. She was amazed with the effect of those Psalms. I just told her to repeat it many times until the message soaks to her subconscious mind. After reading Psalm 23, she falls asleep very deep and became happy when she woke up. Hallelujah!
I conclude that faith, hope and love really works. My love to God may stumble but God’s love cannot be destroyed, it is infinite, stable, and unchanging from generation to generation forever.
Have you experienced the same? You can comment down below and share to me your experience.
