When I experienced deep and severe depression, even my mind wanders and my soul messed up, deep inside of me is saying, “There is a God”. It was in my heart! It’s true that God is within us. With this prompting, I seek God… who He is and I asked for Wisdom.
Before I asked wisdom through prayer, I asked material things. As I contemplate now while I am reading the Bible, as the book of proverbs say, “Get wisdom, get understanding; do not forget my words or swerve from them” – (Proverbs 4:5). While Proverbs 4:7 says, “Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.”
At first, I messed up my prayers. I prayed negative prayers and death, because the pain inside of me is sinking within my innermost being… it’s like hell but more than hell… No vision, No dreams, NOTHING… I am totally blank.
One thing that I am so amazed by that time is that all good things that I asked, I immediately received by God’s grace… His unmerited favor. All the people who helped me gets promotion which make me amaze. I changed church from time to time because their laws and doctrines makes my life more depressed. Until I found a church that truly preached pure God’s Grace and God’s love.
Then from Singapore, I decided to go back here in the Philippines to continue my healing process.
While I am here in Philippines, I am experiencing turmoil and negative situations that makes me feel weak from time to time. Then I went back on reading my Bible (NKJV).
Then, last July 3, 2021, I was in pain again. My youngest sister gets stubborn. She throws all dirt of her anguish heart to me. I burst out also but I keep my mind calm and just enjoy writing this blog and editing videos for my growing channel on Youtube.
Then last night, July 4, 2021, I really do not know what prayer to utter for our waxing salon business. But I know that God told me that He is planting seeds of wisdom to me.
With my human mind comprehension, I was in doubt and told to myself, “Me? Have wisdom?… got depression?… God has given wisdom?”.
So, despite of my unbelief for that message. I just prayed to God, to give me wisdom from Solomon and from my Lord and savior, Jesus Christ.
Then today, July 5,2021, while reading my daily devotional from Joseph Prince Ministry, the bible verse that I got is “Therefore, having justified by Faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by Faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God (Romans 5:1-2).
On the last part of the message on that daily devotion, it says there that I need to declare every morning this message.
“Because of Jesus’ perfect work on the cross, I am righteous by His blood, and I am greatly blessed, highly favored, and deeply loved! I expect good things to come my way. I expect good success and I have a confident expectation of good!”
That message is awesome! It gives me hope for the good promises of God.
I will write again a story for the result of that daily declaration, so keep on reading my articles on this blog.
Hope you are blessed too! Enjoy this wonderful day! Shalom.
